Things I need to say.
Then I read a comment this morning (btw I do read all the comments and appreciate them very much. There are several that I am planning on addressing as soon as I get a chance too) that clarified what I hadn't said.
I've told you about your illness, about our fears. I've described in detail your surgery, and our daily battles to get you well and home.
What I haven't told you is how much I love you.
How just the sight of you heals all my wounds, sooths all my aches.
How your little sounds, and your smell, are addicting to me and put me in a such place of peace and comfort.
Just being near you and my fatigue fades away and worries ease.
I wish I was better with words so I could truly express to you how deep and unconditional my love is.
Your father and I hoped, dreamed, wished, and yes even in our own way prayed for you over 18 long months of infertility.
We would talk of our Jelly and how much we needed you to complete us and how you were the missing piece of our family long before we knew you were you.
You baby boy. You are our dream come true. You are our wish fulfilled.
You, exactly the way you are, you are our miracle.
Your brother is our gift and you are our miracle.
You are a happy story.
You are our happy story.
and I wanted to make sure I told you that.
A little video of you really awake last night. I always forget that it will record what I say so sorry about that. What sounds like you breathing hard is actually the "push" of air that is helping to keep your lungs expanded. The sound of the baby in the background is one of our roommates.
Thank you for your comment Vback. Your so right.
Mason is a happy story. :)